Coffee didn’t sound good. That was my first clue that something was up. If you know me, that’s super weird because I LOVE my coffee time! But for the past couple of days I’d make it, drink a few sips and just not be feeling it. Right now typing up this blog I’m staring at my coffee thinking the same thing — I’m just not feeling you right now. But I’m ok with that. I’m ok with being disgusted by coffee for the next 9 months.

Yes, 9 months. Seeing it typed out right there is so surreal. The past few days have been so surreal. Telling family and friends has BEEN.SO.SURREAL.

 

 

Even seeing these 2 pink lines     ~~~>

(which I’ve never seen before!!) doesn’t seem like real life.

 

 

 

 

Even when we went to the doctor and got blood work done with a beta reading (which measures the pregnancy hormone in my blood) doesn’t seem like real life. (P.S I got a 68 for the 4 week reading! The nurse said anything over a 50 is icing on the cake!)

 

But lo and behold it is real life.

WE’RE HAVING A BABY!!!

Which means out with the old:

And in with the new:

Yes, as of Friday May 20th, I’m 4 weeks pregnant! It’s still super early but with the emotional roller coaster that comes with the infertility game of life, we’re counting every little victory as a win. And maybe that’s why we’re still cautiously excited. I think we just are scared to freak out because it’s natural for us to expect another shoe to drop. That’s what’s happened over the past 3 1/2 years of trying to get pregnant. We would get over one hurdle and then come to a road block. Then clumsily get over that hurdle and clear another one and then BAM! Another road block. Your emotions would go up and down and up and down…and we feel like every time they’re up, they always go down. Prayers that they’ll stay up this time.

I’m still on my medicine. 4 estrogen pills a day (2 in the morning, 2 at night) and my progesterone shot. This will last until we’re 10 weeks. Low levels of progesterone and estrogen are the leading reasons behind miscarriages, so the more that’s in my body the better!

Since I’ll be just taking a picture once a week now (to show my growing belly -WEIRD!!), here’s a look at all the shots and pills I’ll take every week:

I will go to the doctor to get more blood work done 2x a week for the next 2 weeks. They want to make sure the beta numbers are going up. They’re supposed to double every 72 hours. Then we get our first ultrasound around 6 1/2 weeks. That’s when we’ll hear the heartbeat. AMAZING!!!! We’ll also see how many are in there! Since they put two embryos in it is possible that both of them stuck which is a-ok with us! We are just praying for one, healthy beautiful baby! But if there’s more, than that’s just icing on the cake!!

Oh: and we bought our first baby purchase! They’re so teeny, tiny!!!

Here’s a look at how big our baby is: 4 weeks=poppyseed! (The little speck) lol

Inspirational words, verses and sayings have always been front and center in my life. I found these this week and I am so blessed that we are to this point. We are pregnant. We are still the 1 in 8 but we never stopped trying to get over the hurdles. I hope our little embies see what perseverance, hope and prayers can do in life. You NEVER ever give up. ❤️