2017. The year our prayers were answered. The year I became a mommy. The year Laryen became a daddy. The year our family became complete.

I started getting really sad earlier tonight. The year that made our hearts grow exponentially is over. It’s been the most miraculous year and I hate to see it go. So many memories that I worry I won’t remember. I can’t remember how it felt to hold Howie when he was just a little ball of baby love. That scares me. If the first year went by so fast how fast are the other years going to go? I wish I could be better at remembering all the moments of this year. Parents- if you have any tips let me know! I just knew they’re in my brain somewhere.

A new year means Howie will be a year old. Bittersweet and more tears coming. But I have to remember that a new year also means so many new adventures with our sweet baby. He will always be my baby no matter how old he is. And life will continue to get better and better with him learning more and more everyday. I wish I could hold onto his little baby self from 2017 but then I’ll miss out on him saying mama for the first time, walking on his own, saying I love you, and riding a bicycle. So many memories to look forward to.

2017- thank you for being the best year of our lives. Howie- thank you for the best year of our lives. We love you more than you’ll ever know.