One year ago from today these 2 pink lines changed our lives.

 It’s amazing how these lines that are barely a half an inch long can make your world turn upside down in the most incredible way. I remember how nervous I was to even take a test to see if the frozen embryo transfer worked. Our hopes and lives depended on one pee test. After the fresh IVF cycle didn’t work, I didn’t know if I had enough emotionally to keep going. I remember not overthinking every symptom that I thought I was having. I remember earlier that week walking past the bakery at the grocery store and feeling so sick from smelling the sugary sweetness. I wrote a little note saying it seemed weird but tried not to look into it. I remember not wanting a cup of coffee in the morning, and if you know me you know that’s weird. I remember trying not to think that meant I was pregnant. I remember not wanting to jinx it. I remember how I tried to wait as long as I could before looking at this test. I remember how my heart jumped a few beats when I saw those 2 pink lines. “Holy shit” I said out loud with tears falling down my face. “It worked!” I hope I remember all those feelings for my whole entire life. 

And now one year later, this 16 week old bundle of joy continues to make our hearts grow more and more every second of every day. 

One year later, I’ve had my first Mother’s Day; something I honestly wasn’t sure would ever happen. Deep down I knew it would someday but deep down there was also this small worry that it might never happen. After trying for so long you start to wonder about things like that. That’s why I was SO EXCITED for my first Mother’s Day! So stupid but I was just so elated when it was here. And getting so many snuggles and so much love from my boys made it the best day ever. 
One year. Wow! How amazing our Maker truely is to bless us with so much happiness, amazingness and love wrapped up in our sweet Howie.