How is Howie 1/3 of a year old already?! I swear he grows faster and faster everyday! And he’s definitely more baby than newborn now. His newest trick is standing up when we hold his hands, pulling mommy’s hair, and rolling over!! He’s rolled over more front to back but back to front a couple of times too. Time to start thinking of baby proofing. 

He’s also so vocal! He loves to babble when he plays in his jungle gym and he.is.loud! (Wonder where he gets it from lol) It’s so cool to see his imagination working even at 4 months. He’s just babbling at his toys all by himself like a big boy! And he’s still so happy all the time. How did we get so lucky? I don’t know but I thank God everyday that we did. 

Can’t wait to see how much he grows by next month! 

Now that Howie is 4 months tomorrow 😳 I figure it’s a good time to post about him when he turned 3 months! My goal is to get on top of this next month! #lifewithanewborn

Howie has so much personality now! It’s amazing just to see how he’s a different person than when he turned 2 months. He was smiley and happy but now he’s laughing, looking at you when you talk to him, ticklish – so much fun! But he’s still the happiest baby! We are so blessed that he wakes up with a smile on his face and never goes away (unless the damn milk doesn’t come out fast enough). 

He’s getting so strong! He holds his head so well and is more solid. It’s so fun to see him sit in his bumbo and look at the world in a different angle than laying on his back! He is starting to like tummy time a lot more (but still screams) and is starting to play with toys – so fun! I love just watching his little mind work. It’s fascinating! 

I also went back to work full time. It was an adjustment for sure. It’s crazy how being away from Howie even for a few hours is hard. This little boy has brought so much joy to us. I can’t even begin to describe it. Howie, thank you for allowing me and your daddy to be your parents. 

One year ago from today these 2 pink lines changed our lives.

 It’s amazing how these lines that are barely a half an inch long can make your world turn upside down in the most incredible way. I remember how nervous I was to even take a test to see if the frozen embryo transfer worked. Our hopes and lives depended on one pee test. After the fresh IVF cycle didn’t work, I didn’t know if I had enough emotionally to keep going. I remember not overthinking every symptom that I thought I was having. I remember earlier that week walking past the bakery at the grocery store and feeling so sick from smelling the sugary sweetness. I wrote a little note saying it seemed weird but tried not to look into it. I remember not wanting a cup of coffee in the morning, and if you know me you know that’s weird. I remember trying not to think that meant I was pregnant. I remember not wanting to jinx it. I remember how I tried to wait as long as I could before looking at this test. I remember how my heart jumped a few beats when I saw those 2 pink lines. “Holy shit” I said out loud with tears falling down my face. “It worked!” I hope I remember all those feelings for my whole entire life. 

And now one year later, this 16 week old bundle of joy continues to make our hearts grow more and more every second of every day. 

One year later, I’ve had my first Mother’s Day; something I honestly wasn’t sure would ever happen. Deep down I knew it would someday but deep down there was also this small worry that it might never happen. After trying for so long you start to wonder about things like that. That’s why I was SO EXCITED for my first Mother’s Day! So stupid but I was just so elated when it was here. And getting so many snuggles and so much love from my boys made it the best day ever. 
One year. Wow! How amazing our Maker truely is to bless us with so much happiness, amazingness and love wrapped up in our sweet Howie.